Sunday, September 18, 2022

2022.09.18 God's Wealth, Lyn G. Brakeman, Spiritual Lemons, blog post

 


Jesus, a good rabbinical teacher, is remembered as telling his listeners realistic illustrative stories that often challenge long-held, traditional assumptions. No one goes away unmoved after listening to one of his parables; everyone is called up short.   


The parable in Luke (16:-13) about a businessman of great corporate wealth who suspects his business manager of squandering his properties and profits and threatens to fire him, is one that always leaves me reeling, gets me twisted in knots. Business as usual is obviously not an option in God’s economy. But what is?  Christian scholar and theologian, John Dominic Crossan, calls this story a challenge parable—not morally obvious but spiritually unsettling. Money tends to do that to most of us. 

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Once there was this business manager who panicked at the thought of losing his job. He devised a scheme whereby, if he is fired he will be taken care of by those who can least afford to do that. Why can’t he take care of himself? Because he is not strong enough to work, too ashamed to beg, and just plain scared. So he schemes.


The scheme: When debtors come to repay their legitimate debt to the boss, the manager tells each of them to halve the amount due and pay only that. Thus he cheats the boss out of his legitimate profit, and gains some money for himself as well as good will around the neighborhood.

 

He imagines that his “generosity” to the poor debtors might also please God who, according to Jesus’s teachings, likes open-hearted generosity. But Jesus tells the story to warn listeners that wealth accrued by cheating, even if you think the businessman has too much wealth, is itself dishonest behavior not pleasing to God. 


One cannot, Jesus teaches, “buy” friendship with money, and wealth accrued by dishonest means is an insult to the ways of God, or divine economics. And here Jesus delivers one of his best, and probably least heeded yet most preached, one-liners: “You cannot serve two masters, both God and wealth/mammon”  


The semitic translation of “mammon” is “that in which one fully trusts.”  Frankly, I do feel more secure when there is money in my wallet, and in my bank, and a credit card in my bag.   But what good would that do me if my purse were snatched, my wallet and checkbook gone. I’d feel naked, unsafe. I’d report everything. I’d pray. I’d give thanks that I was alive and that my wee phone was still safely tucked away in my back pocket. I would also know that this all was not what God would like at all, and not because of the money I lost.  


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God obviously does not despise money or wealth itself. What God despises are two things: first, putting your whole trust in your wealth, as if wealth could save you, or love you, or even give you emotional comfort; and second, the regular practice of “dishonest”—half-hearted— generosity. Pop a coin in a beggar’s cup, but never a paper bill. 


The mental calculation might go something like this: AFTER I have my yacht, my mansion, my diamonds, my fortune, my business, my high moral standing, my religion, my politics, my comfort, THEN I will become a philanthropist and give generously and unconditionally to works of justice, the arts, and the needs of others.


Is philanthropy, the name we often use to describe the generosity of BIG donors to benefit  good causes, and a word derived from philos + anthropos, meaning man-loving or human-loving, in line with divine open-hearted generosity? Or is God’s generosity something we desire but that we are sure is unattainable, because, after all, we are only human? Ah yes, and we are also rich with grace, beauty, love, wisdom, and hope. Are these not the riches of God?


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Can we, in partnership with God,

be trusted then to waste,

to lavish, spread, fling far too wide

the riches of God’s grace?

-hymn text by Episcopal priest, Michael Hudson, Songs for the Cycle, 2004 

Sunday, September 11, 2022

2022.09.11 Lost? Lyn G. Brakeman, Spiritual Lemons, blog post



God is tender, gentle and compassionate. So said Pope Francis, Bishop of Rome, and such is my own experience. These ARE the qualities of almightiness, divinity, and supremacy—lest anyone should think otherwise, according to traditional human projections onto God. Nothing is lost in God’s compassionate heart. 


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Ever been lost? Lost your way, your direction? Lost a precious possession? A cause you fought for and lost?  Your very soul?  Apparently, the biblical God loses stuff all the time: the cause of justice and mercy, the divine temper, all followers, the entire promised land, a lamb, a beloved son. 


That’s tough going. God rages with deep grief and tears. 


Stories that portray God as a loser, that show God having tender moments and painful feelings, like grief and longing, that dethrone God from perfect Love and Almightiness, are the very stories that “find” me whenever I feel lost in some way. 


I am of course remembering today the event of 2001 in New York city, my hometown. We call it  “NINE-ELEVEN”— a murderous event with many (3000 people) tragic losses that sent waves and shivers of grief and fear throughout our land and beyond. Yes, I can still see, in my mind’s eye, the flaming planes shearing off the top of the towers. Memorials are erected and many still weep. So does God. Why didn’t God prevent this loss? Because God didn’t do it, we did. God grieves and grief  helps us claim life anew. God lives in the grief and in the tears of ALL, and in the lingering fears, and in the many ways all living things, Nature and Human Nature alike, get lost. 


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People worldwide weep, remember, and grieve collectively over the recent death of Queen Elizabeth II of England. Why? She was their steadfast monarch of 70 years, not ours. Not mine some say, and turn away. They were our enemies. Why should I care? Because God cares. Elizabeth was the world’s royal symbol of steadfast presence through a life full of loss and pain and family chaos—just like us all.


One of my top hits when I was a small child was a song I called “Dom Ring”:


My country, 'tis of thee,

Sweet land of liberty,

Of thee I sing;

Land where my fathers died,

Land of the pilgrims' pride,

From ev'ry mountainside

Let freeDOM RING!


The text of this verse was written by Samuel Francis Smith, 1831, student at Andover Newton Theological School in Andover Massachusetts, now located on the campus of Yale Divinity School from which I graduated in 1986.  


As a child I knew nothing of patriotism. These men were not my fathers. I didn’t know any pilgrims on mountainsides. I knew however that this song meant wonderful things. So I lustily sang. 


The tune is the same as the one England sings, now and always, on all occasions of life and death, for their country and their royalty: “God save our gracious queen ….”  All history required of them was to change the gender role from King to Queen. But the tune remains the same. 


God save our gracious QUEEN!

Long live our noble QUEEN!

God save the QUEEN!

Send her victorious,

Happy and glorious,

Long to reign over us,

God save the QUEEN.         Let freeDOM RING.   


The hymn and the anthem were written at times of war between enemies, both fighting for freedom and power or whatever other foolishness we human connive at. Still, the music itself binds, carries. It never takes side. Nor does God who keeps on singing, grieving, weeping, losing and finding us all in us all. Sing on!


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FINALE:  The Ukrainian Freedom Orchestra, conducted by Canadian/Ukrainian, Keri-Lynn Wilson, and including some recent refugees, some of whom shed tears and spoke of how hard this emergent orchestra was at first, because, as a young women bassoonist said, “We had never played together before. It was a mess, but then we took off.”  One violinist said he was so bereft he had no idea what he could do, feeling the loss of his parents and others still trapped in Ukraine. Then he remembered he was a musician. He had a gift to give. And they played with tenderness, gentleness, and emotional depth.  Ms. Wilson.











I heard their concert last night from Lincoln Center in, again, my home town. The music took my breath away, kept me spellbound, drew many tears to my eyes and down my cheeks, and reassured me, once again, that nothing is lost in God’s compassionate almighty heart—NOTHING.      

Sunday, September 4, 2022

2022.09.04 What Is Freedom? Lyn G. Brakeman, Spiritual Lemons, blog post


Below is the obituary of a solitary confinement prisoner that appeared in the latest issue of  the Economist This “punishment” is sinfully inhuman and accomplishes nothing except the silencing of one person’s outer voice. But what happens to the inner voice? 


Are not silence and solitude divine commodities sought by monastics and other brave retreatants who seek, and pay for, the graces of solitude and silence in retreat settings? 


And did not Jesus, in an abrupt, almost cruel way, teach that in order to fully serve the Good we have to separate ourselves from our most precious beloved attachments? (Luke 14:25-43)


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Albert Woodfox, held in solitary confinement for more than four decades, died on August 5th, 2022, aged 75.















“I feel my soul as vast as the world, truly a soul as deep as the deepest of rivers; my chest has the power to expand to infin-ity. I was made to give.”   When Albert Woodfox first read those words of Frantz Fanon, he was sitting on the floor of a nine-by-six cell. Or on his concrete bunk, the only furniture apart from a metal toilet and a metal sink. There were bars on the door, and a tiny window that let in a sliver of sky. His ankles were shackled, and a leather strap bound his wrists to his waist. In these he would shuffle alone for an hour a day round a larger concrete space, ringed with barbed wire, which was laughably called the exercise yard. The other 23 hours he spent in his cell in the Louisiana State Penitentiary. He was there for almost 44 years, or 16,000 days, probably the longest spell of solitary for any man in the history of American prisons.    


The place was known as Angola. It had once been a slave plantation, holding mostly Angolans and growing mostly sugarcane on 18,000 acres. Cutting cane was now done by prisoners, labouring in gangs supervised by white guards who rode alongside with shotguns on their laps. The task was so brutal that men would pay to have limbs broken to avoid it. He had cut cane during his first stint there, before he was locked up alone. He was not nostalgic for it, not even for the company.


In summer his cell was torment. Mosquitoes ate him alive, and he sweated so much that his constant pacing left a wet stripe on the floor. But in any season at any time the worst things, the panic and claustrophobia, could hit him. Soaking sweat would tighten his floppy prison jumpsuit, and the walls would move towards him. The air and the ceiling would descend to smother him. He would leap up then, pacing and pacing, to send the horror away. Each morning on waking he asked himself whether this was the day he would at last lose his sanity.


He was there for a murder he had not committed, the stabbing of a guard called Brent Miller in 1972. Not a shred of evidence linked him to that crime, but he had picked up radical thinking in prison. That was enough to frame him. After three indictments and two trials he was found guilty, but the witnesses were unreliable and the U.S. Court of Appeals in 2014 overturned his conviction, mostly citing racism. The next year he was released after pleading “No Contest” to lesser charges: as good as innocent, to his mind. Almost all the time between he was in solitary, occasionally in the Red Hat block, where the walls were an arm-span apart, rats ran through the darkness and the only food was bread.


Of course he was no angel, but a hardened criminal. From boyhood, growing up ragged and poor in the Sixth Ward in New Orleans, he stole canned goods from shops and pastries from delivery vans. His mother tried to keep him straight but, arrogant, he wouldn’t listen. Older, he stole cars, stereos, tvs, and turned to armed robbery to support a heroin habit. He hurt his own people, black folk who had nothing, and didn’t care. His street name was Fox, but he chose to be a Wolf, who won any fight and who saw incarceration, especially in Angola, as a badge of honor. The only real freedom he knew in those years came when he and his gang would steal the tourist buggy-horses from their stable and race them at night in a park until their mouths foamed.


In Angola, though, he began to change. Conditions there were so bad that he cobbled together a moral code for himself. Sexual slavery was rife, but when he watched a new inmate weeping after being raped he determined to stamp it out. He and a fellow prisoner, Herman Wallace, set up a chapter of the radical Black Panthers—whose methods he had first observed in Tombs prison in Manhattan—to protest against the cane-cutting, and curbed stealing in their cell-tier by organising the share-out of food. They argued for black autonomy, dignity and self-esteem, free minds. When he was put in solitary, supposedly for the Miller murder but really for these ideas, Wallace and another Black Panther, Robert King, were locked in solitary too. Together they pledged that they would not only survive, but come out stronger.


So it happened. His own tiny cell now became a university, full of law books borrowed from the prison library. Armed with case law, read 40 or 50 times if need be, he won small privileges for all the solitary prisoners: fans, radios, magazine subscriptions and an end to unnecessary strip-searches. For two hours a day he would read about the troubles of the outside world, which not only took him mentally out of his cell but expanded his sympathy with the whole of suffering humanity. He did not care much now if, when he complained about his toilet blocking up, tear gas was sprayed in his face. Far worse was happening elsewhere.


A lot of noise went on too, but of a good sort. The ringing bars became a communication system on which prisoners could send maths tests to each other, or invent quizzes. They would play chess by shouting out their moves. His own greatest achievement, he felt, was to have taught a prisoner called Goldy to read. On his hour out, he would stand in front of Goldy’s cell and they would go through the dictionary together. After that, he encouraged his pupil to call him any time of the day or night if he still couldn’t understand. One glorious day Goldy found sounds and words knitting together, and the world opened up to him.


In all these ways, Fox’s solitary cell became the opposite of what his captors intended. It grew to contain the world. And when at last he was released, in February 2016 on his 69th birthday, the real world seemed in many ways no freer. He moved there, still, as though he felt his shackles. He avoided eye contact with others, and feared crowds because an attack might come from any side. In the security of his cell he had dived and soared. Outside, at first, he shrank again. It took a while for him to grow into a fierce campaigner for an end to the evil of solitary confinement, but when he did he discovered afresh the truth he had learned in that nine-by-six cell: that his soul was as vast as the world, as deep as the deepest river, as wide as infinity, and as free.


Albert Woodfox, held in solitary confinement for more than four decades, died on August 5th, aged 75.


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This is beyond brilliant testimony!!  I know there is still some protesting against solitary confinement and hope for its elimination. I've never thought it a good idea anyway, but this obituary, in the most painfully true and miraculous way, gives it spiritual meaning.


It affirms something at least for going on retreats of silence every once in a while.  The first time I ever went on such a retreat I felt angry for two whole days because no one was speaking to me. Of course we could roam about on the monastery grounds and there were wonderful silent meals at which we at least smiled across the table. And a few people by choice took their meals at a table alone. 


Soon I settled into it—and soon my own soul soared.  


How ancient, treacherous, and mysterious, after all,  is this phenomenon we call God, Holy, Infinite, Miracle, Soul, Allah, Buddha,  Christ, YHWH, and the like—soaring and immobilized at once? 

Sunday, August 28, 2022

2022.08.28 A Wedding Does Not A Marriage Make, Lyn G. Brakeman, Spiritual Lemons, blog post



Everyone has a wedding story or two, and many great films are made about weddings. 


Even the New Testament has a wedding story. No, Jesus did not preside or wed any brides, but he did once miraculously fill wine jugs with more wine to make sure the hosts of the wedding feast (reception) did not run out and that the guests could drink their fill—and then some. That wine “miracle” has been traditionally viewed as one of the first “signs” to indicate that Jesus of Nazareth was indeed destined for messiahship or something even bigger, like Son of God, or a big messianic title such as the Christ. Stated less grandly, however, most weddings are in themselves miracles of love and commitment bonded—by the grace of God or the bride’s mother.  After that you are married and the hard work of intimacy-forever begins.


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Seriously though, I bet everyone has amusing wedding stories to tell. Here are a few of my own.


-At the wedding when I married my first husband I was so nervous I clung onto my father’s arm a bit too long. I doubt that anyone noticed, and he never said a thing. I just was terrified about this transition from dependence on my parents to dependence to my new husband.  I figured marriage to be a solemnly sworn trap—till death us do part. It was 1961, and my fears were not far off, given the way church and society viewed marriage and the role of women. It is said that love overcomes fear. I wonder if fear can overcome love?  Will a couple grow together— together?  


-At the wedding when I married my second husband, 26 years later, I was more sure of myself in love. Still, I cried saying my vows. My dearly beloved looked terrified. I saw his mustache quiver. My tears were not from fear but from something much deeper, something grief-like, some combination of mystery and miracle. My second marriage is 35 years old and holding—till death us do part. But what is death? If someone has resided in your heart for any length of time, that person never leaves your heart. 


-At a wedding at which I presided as priest in my first parish after I was ordained, I was waiting for the organist to finish her musical prelude, when I poked my head out to view the congregation seated and waiting. What to my wondering eyes should appear, but several little bridesmaids teetering/wobbling on skyscraper high heels down the aisle toward the altar where no one was waiting for them—no groom, no officiant. I had to make an instant decision. I moved quickly from the sacristy out into the sanctuary and headed down the aisle to meet these  lovelies and turn them around. I gently whispered to them that the music they had heard was NOT the wedding processional—their cue to start to hit the aisle.  Turn about and let’s start over, sweeties. 


-At a good friend’s wedding, there was a “guard” posted at the church doors to make sure the groom’s mother did not enter the sanctuary. We knew that if she showed up she would voice a loud objection and create a commotion worthy of going down in history.  Of course there was no clear plan about what this “guard,” a small woman, friend of the bride’s sister, would do to block a raging, scorned mother of the groom, who, mercifully never appeared.


-And one wedding in which I was a bridesmaid, the whole spectacular event had suddenly to be switched from the church to the bride’s home, and from June to January. The bride’s mother pulled off this miracle—smoothing the fury of her husband as well as lining everyone up for a grand procession‚ of sorts.  


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So you see, there’s no such thing really as a glitch-less wedding. Nor for that matter is there a glitch-less marriage, or a glitch-free love. Love grows and matures slowly as you go, and both people must invest in its care. Take regular stock of your relationship, for it is like a precious child for whom you care tenderly and into whom you invest yourself with hope, trust, and your own vigor. 


The trick is to keep the commitment renewed and renewed and renewed in your heart and with your behavior. Also, get therapeutic help when you feel the marital sag or snag. I think such therapeutic re-fueling is called forgiveness—or God. 





  

    

Sunday, August 21, 2022

Just Say Yes, Lyn G. Brakeman, Spiritual Lemons, blog post, 8/21/22



There are many ways to be “bent.”


The New Testament story on the healing of the bent woman is compelling. I once suggested to a friend who was riddled with arthritis and, yes, bent, that she pray with this story. I suggested that she read it slowly and carefully, then imagine herself in the story as Jesus calls for her to come forth from the shadows into the light. “Are you crazy?” she said. “Not really,” I said. She did not believe me. I wondered about myself, too. 


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In this story, Jesus was teaching in the synagogue. This fact signals us that it was the Sabbath, and he, the Rabbi, was teaching listeners wisdom for life. Nevertheless, Jesus interrupted himself, and in an almost nonchalant way, called this woman, bent double and unable to straighten herself, crippled for eighteen years, to come towards him.  Are you crazy?—she must have thought, but it all happened so fast. She approached, he touched her and told her to stand up straight. She stood.


Such stories are unbelievably shocking, even scary. And yet, our desire to believe them is intense. The woman herself does not thank him, or apologize for being a nuisance—on the Sabbath no less. She simply gives thanks to God. That’s all. Is that enough? 


Yes, it is enough. 


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But no! Onlookers start a FIGHT!  Jesus broke a rule—healing on the Sabbath, The Sabbath is to be sacred for God alone. Well, who do they think created this miracle?  Who in this story is “bent”?  


They then, and we now, fight about miracles, about Jesus being God or a phony actor, about her condition being God’s fault or will, about it being her own fault in some way, (or today, some would say it was her childhood trauma), about the authenticity of scripture itself, about Luke’s political agenda trying to persuade the Gentiles about Jesus’s godliness by making it all up. 


I think that the very worst perspective on this or any miracle is to override its splendor with self-aggrandizement: Mea culpa, mea maxima culpa. In other words, I did something wrong that qualified me for a miracle. Bad me. This habit of self-deprecation is common, and it is anti-theistic, leaving little or no room for divine action, no matter how that comes, no matter how dark, how sinful. How much almighty energy will it take to break through such sinister pride? It takes a miracle!  


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And even when such a miracle takes place we often take the credit for it, as if we ourselves had created this miracle‚ by “fighting” no less. Our language is revealing. The poet Ocean Vuong in his novel, On Earth We’re Briefly Gorgeous, wonders about the overuse of warrior language for everything: “But why can’t the language for creativity be the language of regeneration?" Vuong asks. Instead we use violent language, as Vuong notes, citing some reactions from his fans: You killed that poem. You’re a killer. You came in to that novel guns blazing. I am hammering this paragraph., I am banging them out, we say. I owned that workshop. I shut it down. I crushed them. We smashed the competition. I’m wrestling with the muse. The state, where people live is a battleground state. The audience a target audience. “Good for you, man,” a man once said to me at a party. “you’re making a killing with poetry. You’re knocking ‘em dead.” 


Even in the biblical story violence erupts. They can’t believe the bent woman is straight, so the onlookers start a FIGHT—about rule-breaking for the sake of a bent old woman, no less. And we too, alas, remain addicted to the need for explanations, preferably our own, and yes, violence in word and deed.


Who in this story is bent? 


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What to do? Well, do not go passive or give up in the face of impossible adversity. Even the dictionary tells us that the word “miracle” comes from the  Latin root mirari, to wonder. If you are able, find ways to join WITH—co-operate—using your natural gifts, medical care, therapeutic help, friends, family, prayer, whatever is creative for you—including the unexpected, WITH an inexplicable miracle when it happens. God, it turns out, transcends science, logic, reason, fights, religion, politics, ritual, even our love and prayer. So just wonder.


The best definition of “miracle” I’ve ever encountered, is one offered by Anglican theologian and priest, John MacQuarrie (1917-2007), pictured below: “A miracle is something we are grateful for.”  Simply so. 



















So rejoice!  Something incredibly good, small, unforeseen, inexplicable, eccentric, impossible, yes, miraculous, will happen. Just say yes.


And, because there’s no one worldly source, including yourself, to thank, thank God as the bent woman did with her prayers. Then straighten up and walk on. 

    

Sunday, August 14, 2022

Whither the Weather? Lyn G. Brakeman, Spiritual Lemons, blog post, 8/14/22

 

“You hypocrites! If you can interpret the portents of earth and sky, why can’t you interpret the present time?”  


Who said this? Not some pulpit politician trying to get elected. Not some weather forecaster, trying to defend the forecasts made by his or her network—obviously more accurate than any other. Not some academic or clinician pretending to know more than anyone else, or some self-righteous preacher name-calling.  


Jesus of Nazareth, as remembered and communicated in the New Testament gospels of Luke 12:46-59 and Matthew 16:2-3, said this. It’s pretty harsh, and it is preceded by a forceful denial of the common assumption—both then and now—that Jesus the Christ is a bringer of peace, a kingdom of it, no less. Apparently not. We are expected, I believe, to learn from this harsh teachings that WE are to create and work hard for Peace. Instead, we fight and murder each other, even within a family, over differing politics, religions, on and on. No true, lasting peace is ever had by means of war or warring language. 


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So what is a hypocrite? A hypocrite is an ACTOR, a pretender, one who pretends to know and be sure of the facts and their correct meanings—and does not. Hypocrites only know things from their own point of view, as do actors on stage, as if life itself were a script. 


The best wisdom over all time would suggest that our capacity to know is so imperfect that  we cannot know anything alone. We can contribute our perspectives; then we listen to others, that’s all. Then with care and courtesy WE come to some decision, solution or conclusion that is a workable compromise toward a mutual gain.  


So, we are first-class phonies—hypocrites—when we bloviate (I love that word) with certainty about all we think we know. We are “pulpiteers” full of opinions, few of which are tested by time or expertise. Even science, which many worship as inviolate and inerrant, does not have certain answers.  


I too am a hypocrite. I think most high-gear hypocrisy comes from fear. Right now this world, this planet, lives with a lot of fear of its own demise. Sometimes I pretend to be calm and cool while my innards quiver. 


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Ironically, it is the “weather” or climate, through which we can read the signs. It IS the sign of the present time. It is the “weather” that is demanding to be heard—water, fire, and wind. WE don’t, can’t, or won’t interpret the “portents" of earth and sky.” All created life depends on our willingness to stop arguing and start listening. Will we read the portents of our time in the weather itself? 


I’m trying not follow the hypocritical temptation to soften Jesus’s proclamations, saying, oh the Bible is not literal, and oh, it’s more important to love and do good works, and oh, Jesus spoke for his own day not ours, etc.etc.  Well, sometimes the Bible has something so applicable to say that, well, it must be taken at its word—literally. 


When Jesus tells his friends he comes

that crisis might increase,

it must, it must be time to seek

a wider, deeper peace.  

                       Michael Hudson, text for Hymn #680

(“O God our help in ages past…”)

Sunday, August 7, 2022

2022.08.07 A Special Date, Lyn G. Brakeman, Spiritual Lemons, blog post

 



Today is the day I was born 84 years ago, some time in the early morning hours. I, of course, was a joy to behold—at least that’s what my happy mother told me. 


Today is also the day, my marriage partner, Dick Simeone, was born 81 years ago. He, of course, was also a joy to behold—at least that’s what his happy mother told him. 


Forty-eight and forty-five years later we met, and in 1986, we made a love choice that grew into a commitment called marriage, the second such commitment for both of us, married to each other now for 36 years come November, 2022. Every night, no matter what grief or anger might still lie unresolved between us, we reach our hands under the bed covers for a squeeze as we say, “Okay, good night.”  A love choice. 


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When a child is born, few birthing, laboring mothers have a choice about loving this child immediately. It’s instinct. After that, love begins to lose its infant sheen and gets more and more complicated over time, depending on one’s circumstances. You all know what I mean. This post is not a plea for abortion care, but simply a plea for women, the politics of the womb, and the justice and compassion society and the law should guarantee all citizens, male and female and everything in between. 


If, as the early 2nd-century Christian Bishop, St. Irenaeus of Lyons, said, “The glory of God is the human person fully alive,” then it is up to all of us human persons to help make sure that glory happens, that it is visible, honored. Every effort towards this vision involves love choices. What are love choices?  


Love choices are the most difficult kinds of choices. And there are many in life. Love choices are always painful, always require aborting something or someone precious, including oneself. Doing a cost/benefit analysis may ease the emotional tension, but it is merely a mental exercise, emotionally inefficient. No one is unbroken by love choices, personal or professional. No one. Also, no one can be free without love choices. Let’s face it, love choices are hard, specially those love choices you make that you know will hurt someone else. Many women tend to make love choices that leave themselves out, or too far out, of the satisfaction circle. In truth, many men do the same. Love choices are God choices. 


As I age, I have learned that love choices always include worry, just as love itself does. Worry is not about control, but simply what you feel when you love. Love choices, also always, are driven by the energy of deep caring and Love that is available to us but that we do not possess. God’s love is in Love with us—no matter what. 


HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO US!!  

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AND to recall today’s readings from Holy Scriptures, God tells Abraham and Sarai, who desperately want a child of their own for the faith, yes, and for them to love, to wait and trust. And Jesus tells his followers to wait and trust and pray and watch for Christ’s Presence even after Jesus’s death, because, there are warning signs, discord among people, and weather events we can see, and before which we are afraid and helpless. We live in a climate of grief. To wait and watch and trust is a love choice. 


I tell you a story about a young man, a monastic, who recently heard a presentation about the urgency of global warming  and with it, the possibility of a massive extinction event. The man walked into the winter woods, found a lone hemlock tree, dug a clearing in the snow beneath it until he could see and touch the body of the earth. He nestled against the cold dark soil and prayed as if his life depended upon it. He sobbed and sobbed, feeling  grief and love and gratitude as his flesh knew the earth intimately. He laid claim to a “grief like no other.”  


To grieve deeply and truly is a love choice.